Tears in a Bottle
I was blessed the last few days to spend one on one time with some of my favorite women. These friends are wonderful listeners, insightful and wise. Yet today, I woke with a sense of foreboding. I couldn't put my finger on it, but I just needed a "good cry." Seems like an oxymoron to use "good" and "cry" in the same phrase, but when I can't get to the bottom of my hurting heart, God can.
I love that God even saves our tears and records our trials. A song on the radio yesterday by the group, Mikeschair, in which the lyrics noted that we must believe we are "Someone Worth Dying For," touched me. Obviously this reference was to the fact that even though we were, are and always will be sinners, Jesus chose to sacrifice His life so that we could one day walk with Him in heaven.
As I listened to this song again today on YouTube (http://youtu.be/oF5CjtrIl_c), tears flowed in rivers down my cheeks. I feel so unworthy and the truth is I am, but it doesn't matter since its not about me, but about how much my Savior loves me anyway. There's nothing I can do or not do to change His love for me. What a relief! Once I ask Jesus Christ to come into my life, He's with me in and through the good and the bad...unconditionally, regardless of what I do or who I am.
So although I'm blessed to the rafters with family and friends, some days I feel like crying and the good thing is Jesus understands, "He wept," too (John 11:35).
I love that God even saves our tears and records our trials. A song on the radio yesterday by the group, Mikeschair, in which the lyrics noted that we must believe we are "Someone Worth Dying For," touched me. Obviously this reference was to the fact that even though we were, are and always will be sinners, Jesus chose to sacrifice His life so that we could one day walk with Him in heaven.
As I listened to this song again today on YouTube (http://youtu.be/oF5CjtrIl_c), tears flowed in rivers down my cheeks. I feel so unworthy and the truth is I am, but it doesn't matter since its not about me, but about how much my Savior loves me anyway. There's nothing I can do or not do to change His love for me. What a relief! Once I ask Jesus Christ to come into my life, He's with me in and through the good and the bad...unconditionally, regardless of what I do or who I am.
So although I'm blessed to the rafters with family and friends, some days I feel like crying and the good thing is Jesus understands, "He wept," too (John 11:35).
Some days I just "cry like a baby," and that's okay.
Psalm 56:8 (NKJV)
You number my wanderings;
Put my tears into Your bottle;
Are they not in Your book?
I have those days too, but never know how to articulate or figure out why....thank you for helping me get one more step closer to understanding the love the Lord has for us, when I feel unworthy also. May He continue to bless you with His insight and wisdom and thank you for sharing that insight with us...
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