Not My Fault?
God has a way of waking me up at night so we can have private "conversations" as I lie in bed and my mind begins going over past mistakes and future worries. The other night, the Lord showed me a humongous metal door and it clanged shut. Then a large metal arm dropped down and locked the door on my side. A small white sign appeared and noted, "Do not enter." I smiled.
Before the door appeared, I had been going over situations in the past that I felt like someone had wronged me. Then a thought came to mind, "No, you could have avoided the situation. You were at fault." I was astonished at the thought and argued with it, It was not my fault. But then the Lord showed me the situations from totally different perspectives.
I was wrong. I could have avoided the problems that led up to these devastating situations along with the regrets and embarrassment that followed. Then the door appeared and it was as if the Lord was saying, "You figured out the root of the problem and asked for forgiveness, now move on. Although the lock is on your side, if you choose to go back in there." I felt enormous relief, even though it wasn't what I really wanted to admit. But figuring it out gave me a way to get past it and my mind could move on to more productive thoughts and purposeful prayers rather than dead ends and tarnished dreams.
Before the door appeared, I had been going over situations in the past that I felt like someone had wronged me. Then a thought came to mind, "No, you could have avoided the situation. You were at fault." I was astonished at the thought and argued with it, It was not my fault. But then the Lord showed me the situations from totally different perspectives.
I was wrong. I could have avoided the problems that led up to these devastating situations along with the regrets and embarrassment that followed. Then the door appeared and it was as if the Lord was saying, "You figured out the root of the problem and asked for forgiveness, now move on. Although the lock is on your side, if you choose to go back in there." I felt enormous relief, even though it wasn't what I really wanted to admit. But figuring it out gave me a way to get past it and my mind could move on to more productive thoughts and purposeful prayers rather than dead ends and tarnished dreams.
2 Corinthians 7:10
Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret,
but worldly sorrow brings death.
Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret,
but worldly sorrow brings death.
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